zerbycandles It’s going on six weeks since the unseasonably warm Sunday evening in Belmont Shore when Long Beach Police Department officers shot and killed a beer-buzzed surfer named Doug Zerby as he unsuspectingly fiddled with a water nozzle on a friend’s porch.

The officers say they mistook the pistol-shaped nozzle—which they say Zerby was pointing in a two-handed shooter’s grip—for a real gun. Actually, to be precise, that’s what LBPD spokespeople say that the officers said. You’re free to take their word for it.

But you’re just as free to take the word of Zerby’s spokespeople—his mother, one of his sisters and their attorney. They reiterated their version of events during Tuesday night’s Long Beach City Council meeting. And in the words of Pam Amici, Zerby’s mother and a teacher at Poly High for the past 25 years, “an out-of-control Long Beach Police Department … killed my son in cold blood.”

Unfortunately, after all this time,  the painful and unproductive exchanges of perspective by a nervous police department and a heartbroken family are still the best we have to go on in high-profile case of truly bizarre and terrible tragedy. Zerby was 35 years old, raised in Long Beach and had an 8-year-old son. He was killed by police officers who were responding to a telephoned complaint about a man with a gun, but who opened fire on him with a service revolver and shotgun without identifying themselves.   

Obviously, that scenario begs a lot of questions, demands a lot explanation and provokes a lot of emotions. Frustratingly, however, nearly all the facts related to the case have become secrets of several public officials and law enforcement agencies. Even such basics as the names of the officers and the results of Zerby’s autopsy are included in this information quarantine.

At least three agencies—the Los Angeles District Attorney, the County Coroner and the Police Shooting Review Board—are looking into Zerby’s killing, and they claim the ongoing blackout of facts is essential to their investigations.

You’re free to take their word for it.

But holding information hostage can produce negative effects, too—suspicion and resentment on one side, disinterest and resignation on the other—particularly when it is imposed for so long. This info embargo began the evening Zerby died. That was way back on December 12.

Surprised it’s been that long? Don’t be—the memory tends to fade with the passage of time. Same goes for the sense of shock.

And that’s a big concern for Amici, who wonders whether this long wait with no information may ultimately drain away public interest in the killing of her son and eliminate the public pressure that will likely be necessary to ensure rigorous investigation, real justice and possible reform of Long Beach Police Department procedures.

In case members of the City Council were wondering about that as she spoke Tuesday night, Amici cleared things up in the final sentences of her short address.

“We are not going away,” she promised in a voice both wobbly and resolute, “so please do not ignore us.”

You’re free to take her word for it.